the feeling of meeting an artist

and thinking you found a real person for a change. that must be the thing. something rocklike answerable to onesself.

Climate change makes everything you see around you "history"

reflections on a.pig

I watched the command performance of sweating and lyricisim and I thought, we were made to destroy ourselves. I mean people, humanity. & that that's what jazz eroticizes and rock makes explicit. We humans are a species designed to self-destruct. The self-possession of this middle-aged lawyer sweating his heart out with grim gravity of devotion toward "what moved me then" and "what I felt about the world then and still feel now, regardless of what you all think, of how I look, of whatever the hell is happening out there. I solemnize my passion this way. This is a statement about my hermetic detachment specifically designed to inure against ANYTHING, ANY kind of CATACLYSM befalling the world." The narcissist swan song trumps all. And I think this is the overriding mechanism at work in the mass denial taking place at the actual destruction of the world environment taking place now. It's not that people are ignoring it. It's just that it doesn't rank with the realm of the personal, which on some level knows and pays tribute to the fact that we are a kamikaze species. (I'm of course not speaking of everyone, but of enough people that the attitude determines the outcome.)

Smarts

That one wasn't as smart as he wanted to be. That other was smarter than he wanted to be. Both might their quietus make. Either too smart for his own good, or not enough.

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a judgmental couple

pointing out others habitually with the phrase "yep, going over the cliff, that one."

unregenerate

why is it so in the air
to go to your grave
unrepentant

something on NPR about voice and music

minor 2nds and minor 3rds in kinds of speech having exact paraellels in music

depression luxe

I'm not smart enough to be exquisitely depressed. it's a kind of intellectual boast I just can't claim