when life was one thing

one indescribable plumbable thing with no edges. George had that indivisability. Or rather that irreducibility. He was just this effusive force, mindful of making other people feel great, driven to get work created, to have his say about large things, state of the world things, if big in misjudgments, even bigger in correcting himself.

the culture of surprise

like film, a tunnel and you don't know what's coming. hacks exploit this. it's the appeal of the internet. what can we throw at you now, and now, and now. keep you off-balance, unsure, take your money.

belief in a character, belief in God

Belief in a character, whether created, performed or experienced is identical to belief in God. It fills you with light energy and hope. It either is a surrogate for that real connection to the creator of everything we know, or it is actually an expression of that same creation.

Meditation on Ali Fear Eats the soul vs Blue Valentine

Why does Fassbinder work, where climax of BV seems like a frantic improv

whores and cannibals

in the face of this adversity, first you become a whore, then a cannibal

greed and envy

debilitating envy.
change, force, lead, take charge
or wait, clutch, live in dread of deprivation and be deprived

film: victim of some horrible crime

sheriff deputy names his dog after the victim. misunderstood as slur

Film: candidelike

Character wooed by every life career possibility--a kind of generalists odyssey looking at the myopia of